Lex looked up from where he'd been looking at the table, unable to meet Anatoly's eyes throughout the meal, afraid they would give away something he wasn't sure he could explain. Normally he was so very confident in everything he did, but today he wasn't sure about anything. Except for how much he need the man in front of him.
After meeting Anatoly's gaze for a moment, Lex sighed and looked back down. "I think your right. I'm afraid I don't know where to begin." It was the truth. How did he explain to Anatoly what had happened? Did he start back in Smallville? With what his and Clark's friendship had been based on? How did he describe the secrets he wanted so badly from his friend when he wasn't even sure what they were anymore?
He motioned for Anatoly to return his seat at the table and took the man's hand when he did, taking strength from the touch. That fear was back, the same he'd felt when he'd told Anatoly the meaning behind the cufflinks. After everything...was this what would lose him the man that even he couldn't deny that he loved more the anything anymore?
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After meeting Anatoly's gaze for a moment, Lex sighed and looked back down. "I think your right. I'm afraid I don't know where to begin." It was the truth. How did he explain to Anatoly what had happened? Did he start back in Smallville? With what his and Clark's friendship had been based on? How did he describe the secrets he wanted so badly from his friend when he wasn't even sure what they were anymore?
He motioned for Anatoly to return his seat at the table and took the man's hand when he did, taking strength from the touch. That fear was back, the same he'd felt when he'd told Anatoly the meaning behind the cufflinks. After everything...was this what would lose him the man that even he couldn't deny that he loved more the anything anymore?