A Battleground for Rival Ideologies

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If Anatoly had been thinking more clearly, he would have been suspicious of the little reel in the bookcase bearing the label of "Chess 2009". The bookcase had been on a cycle of giving him things he didn't like or need, so the fact that it was cooperating now should have registered as a bad sign.

None of this crossed his mind, however, as he painstakingly threaded the reel to the projector. Whatever it might be - a documentary on the history of chess or showing of a match between two grandmasters, he was certain he was going to enjoy it. This was clearly about his beloved game and there was just no way that it could show him something he would not like.

His first inkling that he was terribly wrong about all of this was the very first shot showing an enormous concert hall. His mouth dropped open as he heard the announcer call "Josh Groban" and he saw himself walk across the stage. The case fell from his fingers as he saw Freddie follow after someone who bore a rather strong resemblance to Maureen. What was this?

The concert started but things still failed to make any kind of sense. Who would write a concert about chess? Why would someone write a concert about chess? He wasn't sure which was more disconcerting - that or that people who looked exactly like him and Freddie appeared to be in it.

When the song about what appeared to the history of chess ended and the main singer with the gloves started speaking, he was horrified. This wasn't a story about chess, this was about him. Him and Freddie and what happened between them and if he could have found the strength to get up to shut the damned thing off, he would have.

He was too shocked to move, to do anything but watch his nightmares play out in song and bizarre chorus. The only comfort he could find was that at least they had gotten Freddie behaving like a bastard right.

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Anatoly had to agree that the woman on the screen was very beautiful. The problem was that she looked nothing like his Svetlana. Where she was tall and blonde, his wife was dark-haired and petite. It was strange that they would get other things so right and that so wrong - and that this was apparently how it had been for Freddie.

"Sveta didn't look like that," he said, bemused. "I showed you her picture before, remember? She was beautiful but not like this."

Then the woman began to sing and it was worse than what he had feared. He'd imagined that she would be angry with him, and deservedly so. He hadn't ever thought that she might still love him after all that happened between them. He hadn't realized just how badly he had hurt her.

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"Different worlds, remember?" Freddie murmured. "This is me. This is what happened to me." Funny how that didn't seem to strange, now, seeing it on screen and knowing that it might have been different for Anatoly. He swore under his breath when he saw Molokov tutoring Svetlana what to say. He knew what was coming. He'd lived it. He'd followed his lines and might have added a few of his own.

He sunk down in the couch as he waited for it. What did he get off being judgmental when he'd played into their hands as much as anyone? There was only once, only one time, that he had been his own man.

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"I think I might be sick," Anatoly muttered. "How foolish were we to think we were only playing a chess game?"

He couldn't even summon the energy to be angry anymore, not when he saw how clearly everyone was being used. Svetlana, Florence... and of course, Freddie and himself. "I'm learning things I didn't want to know" - perhaps truer words had never been sung.

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God, he could still remember it like it was yesterday. More than simply shooting him down, she'd almost mocked him. He stared at his knees and didn't know until it was too late what was next. Until he heard his own voice. Talking about his past.

His head jerked up. "Shit." No. No way was anyone watching this. He leaped off the couch, hell-bent on getting to the projector before anyone, especially Sergievsky, could hear anything damning.

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The first thing that shot through Anatoly's mind was that if he had to sit and suffer through this showing details of his own life than by god, Freddie had to do the same. He dove after Freddie, trying to pull him back to the couch.

His second thought was one of horror as he listened to the song. If it were true and he had no reason to think it wasn't... then Freddie's life hadn't been as wonderful and golden as he had always imagined. He had suffered in his own way and had turned to chess for solace.

They... they weren't so different, really.

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"Get off me," Freddie growled, trying to throw the other man off. He hated anyone hearing about his past and it was like reliving it all over again. How his father had left and how his mother had slept with anything with a dick. How he'd hidden from them all. Finally, how he'd never called his mother to let her know that he'd actually succeeded because what if she'd forgotten about him?

By the end of the song, he managed to push Sergievsky away with a hard shove and he moved to the far end of the couch, turning his face away. He didn't want the other man to see that there were angry tears in his eyes.

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Anatoly hesitated for a moment then put his hand on Freddie's shoulder. He wasn't at all sure the other man would appreciate or understand the gesture, but it was something he had to do. It was hardly sufficient enough to be a proper apology, but it was a start.

The scene changed and he glanced over out of idle curiosity and wished he hadn't. Svetlana and Florence were singing. About him. He forced himself to keep watching, though he would have preferred to shut the damned thing off.

"I am sorry," he whispered and buried his face in his hands. He had tried, he truly had but he was seeing now that he hadn't tried hard enough.

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Freddie's shoulders grew tighter at the hand. "I don't want your pity," he snarled. He didn't want it, but he also didn't try to shrug the hand off. He didn't want pity, but what he did want was someone who understood. Who understood that the game was everything and that it had been perverted and twisted and that they had not only let it happen...they had helped do it.

That was why Freddie hated himself and watching this only made it worse. It only made him see that there was only one time when he had actually threw the Commies and his own...his own handler the finger and been true to the game and himself.

"They manipulated us both." It wasn't really accepting the apology, but letting Anatoly know that they were in the same boat.

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"And we let them," Anatoly said dully. "I... I thought I was doing the right thing, the best thing, but this is only showing me that I was just playing into their hands."

He had also seen that his view of himself as the innocent, blameless champion against Freddie's disgraceful villain was hardly accurate or fair. His actions had not all been perfect and he caused harm by not taking things into consideration. Freddie had his own pain, no matter how much he might have tried to hide it.

It had taken some time but as that song had said - it had took time to understand the man.

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"Oh, stop being so melodramatic. We both underestimated them. We were outplayed." Freddie was tired of the dramatics and so he used the one point he knew he could to rile the other man up enough that this wasn't just one fit of emo after another.

"You should know what being outplayed feels like. I outplay you all the time."

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At that, Anatoly's head snapped up and he turned to glare at Freddie. "You most certainly do not. At best, we are evenly matched." At least, judging by the few games they had actually played through the end they were.

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"That's what you like to think, but we haven't played more than a handful of games without fighting. Without emotions getting in the way." Freddie smirked. In reality, he knew they were pretty evenly matched, but the point was to rile him up.

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"Who started those fights?" Anatoly demanded. He might have understood Freddie a little more but that didn't mean he couldn't get annoyed by his obnoxiousness. "It was not always me!"

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"Hey, it wasn't always me either. You're not the nice guy that the media always seemed to think you were." Unfortunately, that was probably why they were always at odds. They were more alike than either of them really wanted to admit.

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Anatoly opened his mouth to reply but his attention was caught by the current scene. It was the two of them on the screen and they were - were they talking? And Freddie giving him advice?

He looked from the screen to Freddie and then back again. "Are you trying to help me?"

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Freddie let out a harsh breath as he looked at the screen, the wall, anything but Anatoly. "You were going to just give up. Give in. To Viigand of all people." His eyes kept going back to the screen. Did he follow Freddie's advice or did he lose? This was what he'd wanted to know since he arrived and he leaned forward on the couch the closer he got to knowing.

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"You know why," Anatoly said, his gaze dropping down to his knees. "For Florence."

He had been so sure that decision was the right one. If there was any chance her father was alive, then he didn't want to be the one responsible for keeping her from him. He would lose, she would see her beloved father and her happiness was worth any number of chess games.

But he hadn't known the things he knew now, he hadn't seen the depths of Walter and Molokov's treachery. If he were asked to make this decision again... he wasn't sure what he would do.

"No one came and told me about your King's Indian Defense, though. Perhaps that might have made a difference." He was only joking. Mostly.

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Freddie snorted. "You know it wouldn't. Besides, would you really want someone else to tell you about my weaknesses? I only told you his because you weren't looking and you needed someone to jerk you out of your ignorance." It wasn't even ignorance, though, was it? If it had been ignorant, if he hadn't actually been better than Viigand, then Freddie would never have had said a thing, but he was so much better. It was more like deliberately being blindly stupid.

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What Anatoly hadn't known from his study of Freddie's games, he had wheedled out of Florence, but he judged that telling him that would be a poor idea, to put it mildly. In any case, that had been a different situation then what was happening on screen.

What decision would this Anatoly make? He thought he knew but he couldn't be sure. In this version as in his life, there was too many complications going on and no real time to make a decision.

The scene changed and he blinked, tugging on Freddie's shirt to get his attention. "Tal? Lasker? Are they - are they naming the champions?"

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"What are you do..." Freddie went quiet when he saw what was on the screen and he heard what they were saying. Singing. Whatever. When he replied again, his voice was more hushed. It was almost reverent. "They are." Now this? This was something that Freddie could respect, even with everything.

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Anatoly remained quiet throughout the entire scene, with his hand on his heart as his way of paying tribute to the great masters. They were all listed, he was touched to see. This was perhaps the one part of this whole thing that they both could agree on as being good.

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And then came that damn music again. Freddie already knew he was going to hate it. It meant that Anatoly was playing a game. His game with Viigand. He was almost afraid to see what happened. Did he throw the match or did he win?

"What would you have done?" he asked quietly.

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"It is hard to say," Anatoly answered, running a hand through his hair. "But I think... I think I would have chosen to win because it is like you said - what else did I have left? But if they do this how I imagine they might, then it will be the last few moves of the game that decides."

He paused for a moment, watching the scene and wishing dearly that he could strangle Molokov through the screen. "All through my game, I struggled to know what to do, what was the right thing."

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"I just...I need to know." He desperately needed to know one way or the other. Quietly, almost to himself, he added, "I need to know whether what I said made any difference."

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There was nothing Anatoly could say in response to that so he simply remained quiet and watched. It had made a difference to him but that hardly helped Freddie. He needed to know what the Anatoly in his world had done.

The more he watched, the more he became convinced that winning the game was the only option. This Florence hardly seemed to understand the pressures he was facing and Svetlana would always despise him for choosing chess over family. Losing to some nobody clearly under Molokov's thumb was unthinkable.

Win and return home. It was the only way this could be played.